I’ve been having a whirlwind of thoughts lately. It vaguely reminded me of what I went through when I turned 25. Except this time, I’m used to all the confusion that I bring onto myself by over-thinking, over-analyzing and over-asking (yeah, I don’t know what this word means either).
I’m still pretty content with my life, but sometimes I feel I don’t see an end goal anymore. When I first started this journey, I wanted Sevan to be this huge global empire. Part of me still wants that, but some days, I just really want to ditch it all, move to Brazil and start shooting some real artsy stuff. I battle living in two completely different worlds and I really don’t know how much longer I can do it. I’m an entrepreneur, but I suffer from wanderlust. I’m a photographer that gets too caught up listening to people’s stories to bother taking photos of them.
It’s weird, because I still love shooting the commercial things like weddings and portraits, but I think I’d just like to do it in a different way. I just can’t quite figure out what this different way is. Actually, I do know…I would love to be able to shoot things for free and do it because I really enjoyed that. I wonder if that’s at all possible. Hmmm…shooting everything for free. I like it. But how would I seriously be able to support myself? (I really dislike money.)
You know, I’m not going to worry about that for now. I’m going to go with this. It’s really weird, but I didn’t know where I was going with this post when I started writing tonight, but it’s all starting to make sense. Kinda. Tia will want to strangle me, but I’m pretty sure she’s used to my whims by now. That’s part of the problem, I’m whimsical, some might even call me fickle. I have a million things I want to do, but only for a very limited amount of time.
Anyway, I’ll sleep on this…for a few days.
Anyone have any thoughts on who I could/should shoot for free? Or is this all sounding a bit crazy?
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Caldeia
1 year ago
Shannon, we’re like sisters! Haha I get really good, nice ideas that I could just leave everything for. And then wake up the next day and think “what the hell was I thinking of??!” =)
You know what, you don’t have to choose. Let things just flow and everything that is meant to happen will happen.
If you need ideas what to shoot for free, first thing crossing my mind is charity. Ex street kids, nature etc and just shoot whatever you like and whenever you need money you throw an exhibition =) Everything around us we see is for free so why not just shoot!
Fica bem menina!
Xx
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shannon
1 year ago
Thanks Caldeia…very sound advice. I get impatient and I really shouldn’t. I’ve started back up with the In the Light project. It’s been nagging at me and falls in line with the whole shooting for free thing. And I’ll find something to do when I go back to Brasil
Cynthia
1 year ago
No idea, I wish I did though. Now that I know we are closer than we both realized, if you ever need a subject, let me know.
Cynthia´s last blog ..I have realized…
shannon
1 year ago
If you want a shoot Cynthia, let me know. I’d love to photograph you!
tia
1 year ago
i’m gonna strangle you…one day.
shannon
1 year ago
I know, I know…but i DID come to my senses. Just in the nick of time. (What does this saying mean anyway? Who is nick?)
Todd Covington
1 year ago
Shannon I completely understand what you mean. Some days I want to just drive, pick up my daughters, and spend the end of time with them, watching them grow. Watching them breathe, live, react, have emotions, show Love. I miss that part of life. Sometimes I feel too busy in being too busy. If you need someone to shoot, let me know, I am whimsical as well. Have a million ideas and can only work on one at a time!
Todd Covington´s last blog ..I Write To The God In You
shannon
1 year ago
Too busy in being busy is very real. I try to curb that to make sure that I’m living as much as people because in the end, that’s what really counts. As for the shoot, definitely. Just tell me what you’re thinking.
Todd Covington
1 year ago
The idea on the shoot is my thoughts seen in through my life (face) body features, etc. Honestly Im up to trying anything. Looking to express my words through photos.
Todd Covington´s last blog ..Missing View (you)
shannon
1 year ago
I’m definitely down. We’ll have to figure out the logistics (date, location).